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So, once again, I'm sorry for my inactivity, but I have been dreadfully busy and there have been many things to sort out.

But, vacation time is coming up, and I have a feeling I will get a lot more done when I am back east in the too hot of weather.

I have officially put in the two weeks at the theater so once that is up I'm going to have a very free schedule. I am most definitely looking forward to some 'me time' before moving back east to start school.

ON another note...my subscription is about to run about! Seems like I picked a bad time to leave my job huh?
Haha.


Things are starting to calm down and I'm loving it. As always, I'm hoping all you lovely people are doing well!
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Hello beautiful people of the world!


Happy second day of summer!
I sincerely hope you are all doing well.

I'm sorry for my inactivity, but I have been dreadfully busy and there have been many things to sort out.
It may take some time before I stop my lurking and begin being an active participant in the DA community once again.

Until that time, I shall be doing my best.


::Updates::
Plane tickets are now booked for my move back east.
I bought a car.
My dad bought me a new laptop- it's a Mac, but I love it.

And that's about that.

I'm doing better, feeling great, and working a lot.
I hope you can say the same.

I am ready to get back in the swing of school and finally get some real direction for my art.



Hurray for the future!!
More from me later, go out and enjoy life in the meantime.
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Edit:: Wow...I was drunk when I wrote this. Fuck.


I had a dream and I couldn't wake up, didn't want to wake up.

I have some things to say.


I like to read the letter you wrote to me over and over again. I like to smile at our picture from my going away party. I like to think of you, of us together. I like to remember.
For the longest time, I was angry, so angry, but that's my immediate feeling, my safe feeling. If I was angry, I didn't have to be sad, didn't have to miss you. But now I know because of you as long as I live things will keep happening. As long as I am alive, wishes will keep being made. You were an amazing chapter in my life, but one that is now closed. Your memory still tugs at my heart strings, and when I visit that cold stone with your name, and see the graveyard in front of our old houses I might cry, but then I'll smile, and be happy for what we had, and who you were in life.



Life has taken us to a place I'd never thought we'd see.
You are so far away, but still my best friend, closer to me then anyone around me right now. It's hard, communicating with the time difference, trying to make time for each other, but it's more then worth it. You can always make me laugh, turn every situation around with your adorable broken english. I hope so desperately to be able to visit you soon. I miss you, but know you are still within reach. I have learned a lot from you, and am so happy that we became friends the year you were here. It seems like just yesterday we said our teary goodbye in Alyshia's 'boat'.
Remember "Ano hito wa?"
Remeber coloring hair, and shoe shopping.
But overall, I hope you'll always remember me.



And finally...

I would give anything for you to be able to read this, to see your face again, to touch you again. I miss you more then I thought possible, and I'm torn apart that you left me here all alone. It's been over a year, but I still cannot wrap my mind around the reality of you not being here. I miss your laugh, your smile, your visits at midnight. I miss our picnics, our songs, I miss YOU. I'm so angry at you for lying, for not telling me you were sick..I'm furious. But, I would do anything for just one more moment with you, to once more hear your voice. It's hard, but I'm growing up just like you wanted, and I'm happy. I will never forget you, for you made me the person I am today, and I will always cherish the time we had together.



I'm growing up, but I'm decelerating.
This is me getting things off my chest, I don't want to hear if you think I'm emo, or childish.
I don't need that from you.


I'm at a point in my life where I'm happy, but it's not enough, because I'm scared.




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So kiriban is OVER....haha no one sent me a screenshot, so I think I'm just gonna give up on it.

Whatevs.

I've finally graduated.
I have friends.
I have a life.
In four months, I'm moving to Philadelphia.

Is that something I'm ready to do?

And is it something I can do alone?

Good question.







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